INVITATIONS ARE EXPENSIVE!

Like, omg, it's just paper.
I'd be better off hand writing a butt load of invitations after learning caligraphy and memorizing everyone's address. Jesus.
However, I discovered VistaPrint is way cheaper than Shutterfly. I'll take it.
I'm sleepy. I gotta go to bed and dream some weird crap. Night!

Wedding Nightmare #3 or 4....I've lost track.

It was the day of or the day before my wedding. I was....somewhere...hotely. Nobody else was anywhere so apparently we didn't have a big turnout. I suddenly realized that I never got a dress and that my nails looks just like they look right now.  No.

I found a spa in this place I was and set up an appointment to get myself straightened out and polished. I asked if they had any fancy dresses around that I could wear. They had this light lavender dress that was kind of retro but fancy. It had little sparklies on it and little pearls and stuff. It was calf length, very Leave It to Beaver shaped and had matching lavender shoes.

I remember thinking that it was a nice dress but not really what I had in mind. It looked kinda nice on me and kinda gross. My legs must have been skinnier than in reality because I remember liking the shoes.
Pretty sure we're not going with lavender for the wedding but....you never know. Maybe I'll forget all about needing a dress and have to take what I can find.

Kicking over the table

So we're changing everything. We're both looking forward to it a little more now that it's actually going to be easier. It seems more like a real wedding instead of a sorta wedding.

It will be simpler but fancy. I think we'll like it. It hurts to cut the guest list but in the end it's likely nobody will remember. What else can I do? Nada.

Details will come later. Feel free to ask if you want to know.
And here's my a-hole request as the star spaz of the day- If it is your heart's deepest desire to attend our wedding and you live far away or I haven't seen you in a long time please do make sure I know. We are trying to invite as many people as we can but we can't invite everyone we want to. If I'm not able to invite someone who has told me they want to come I at least want to be able to tell them they aren't being forgotten.
It's not PC and all that shit but....everybody will get over it eh.

I feel like I never shut up about it but it's on my brain a LOT, and far more often than I'd like. 

There's the people who WANT to come, those who want to but can't, there's people who feel obligated to come, there's people who would come if it worked out, there's people who will come unless they're on their deathbed, and then those who don't care for weddings all that much to begin with. 

We want to see the ones who want to be there, for whatever reason. If someone doesn't want to or is unable to come that's ok. I assume folks feel the same way about invites but who knows. I've gotten invites from people I never expected (and several I never replied to, which I'm a jerk for but I was young and forgetful) and I didn't get invites from people I assumed I would. I never really cared about weddings but I feel like I'm supporting someone if I'm there. Not that I'm NOT supporting them if I'm NOT there... Though that may have been the case, maybe not. I dunno. I over think it because it's a weird time. Weird ordeal. I wish it could be different actually but there are rules and junk. Anyway... Fresh start kinda. Yay!